I'm prolly not going to update this mess at all anymore .. . . mainly bc . . . idk . . i just dont feel like it. Ya'll can hit me up on myspace though.

 http://www.myspace.com/september24always

Love Alwayz

~Innocence

I'm in Canada now and its about 3:47 AM . . . I can't sleep of course bc I've diagnosed myself with insomnia . . .w/e. Anyways.

It sucks to be me right now. The majority of my cousins aren't here yet, and I've had nothing to do. I miss my boyfriend a hella lot and I'm not allowed to go on my top secret mission lol . . . those of u who know me know what/who I'm talking about. *grrrowl* I really wish i could though because IM SO DAMN BORED. I don't even feel like shopping . . now thats freaking depressing. I'll be upd8ing a lot now just bc . . . so be sure to check back later.

Much luv

Innocence

Bakit ba ganyan ang damdamin
Alaalay sadyang ikaw
Sa pag-iisay nakikita
Bakit lagi ay naroon ka

Dati-ratiy di pansin
Ang mga sulyap mo at mga tingin
Pilit na lumalayo
Ngunit ang damdamin
Ang syang nagsasabi

Ibigin ka ng tunay at lubusan
Ngunit ang isip koy takot
Baka masaktan lamang
Gagawin sadyang di ko malaman
Kagulo ng isip ko
Puso ay litong-lito
Kung paano

Oooohhhh

Aaminin kong sa pangarap
Ay kasama ka kahit saan
Yakap mot halik ay di kaya
Na pigilan kahit kalian

Dati-ratiy di pansin
Ang mga sulyap mo at mga tingin
Pilit na lumalayo
Ngunit ang damdamin
Ang syang nagsasabi

Iibigin ka ng tunay at lubusan
Ngunit ang isip koy takot
Baka masaktan lamang
Gagawin sadyang di ko malaman
Kagulo ng isip ko
Puso ay litong-lito
Kung paano

Iibigin ka ng tunay at lubusan
Ngunit ang isip koy takot
Baka masaktan lamang
Gagawin sadyang di ko malaman
Kagulo ng isip ko
Puso ay litong-lito kung paano

This song describes what's been going on with me the past couple days . . and after really thinking about the lyrics I've realized that I'm a dumbass lol. I'm so happy my baby has been there to help me see through all the darkness. Baby I love you more than anything, and even though I'll be leaving soon doesn't mean that we're going to fall apart. I won't let us. Mahal Kita

Well . . .Lets see . . . Prom was last Sat. not much to say about that cept it was coo. Could have been better but it doesn't matter bc next year is goin 2 b off the chain! Can you say PARTY BUS??? I can't wait. Only a few more weeks of school and then I think I'm off to toronto or sumthin *sigh* I'm going 2 miss my baby, but sall good.

Anywayz . . . Here are the Prom Pix! *Enjoy*

Happy Easter

Well Anywayz... it's been a while since I've last updated, but there isn't anything new with me. Same stuff just a different day. I've had a recent revelation and I realized a few things that have been keeping me down. By shining light on these things and acknowledging them I've been truly happy. I saw that I was in love with memories. . . memories that I couldn't bring back to life if I tried. I was confused on what I really wanted, but I figured it out. During sunrise mass this morning the priest was talking about how we as people tend to live in the past. He said that the past is meant to stay in the past and we need to live in the present and for the future. As he spoke my head hung low in prayer and I cried because for once I understood what was being said. I realized so many things about myself and my life within that hour that it was overwhelming. I believe that I did a little of growing up. I 've been hurt so many times in the past and I've been letting that get in the way of my present. My past has been hurting me and killing my soul because I couldn't find a way to move on. I allowed myself to be torn between what is and what once was. It got to the point where the past couple of months I've had trouble eating and sleeping because I just couldn't figure out why I was acting this way. . . why I wasn't truly happy. But I know now. I can't hold on to the past anymore. It's not going to do anything to me except make me physically, mentally, and emotionally sick. A special thanks to my wonderful boyfriend for putting up with me through all of my drama and bullshit. I really don't know what I would do without you. You keep my sane and I thank God everyday for blessing me with you in my life. I never say this enough but I love you with all of me. Nothing and noone can break us apart and never will. Now I know and can say without doubt in my mind that it's going to be you and me until the end. Thank you for believing in me when noone else would and making me smile when all anyone else has ever done was make me cry. You brought back my smile and my butterflies. . . something I havn't had in a really long time. I love you so much.

Forever until the end of Eternity...

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